Thursday, June 11, 2009

A long exhausting day

Addison, Bryce and Collin all have jaundice now and the lights on them. If this is the biggest problem they have I feel like we are extremely blessed. They are all eating well through the feeding tubes and have increased their CC's. The nurses say they like to eat! They are still losing weight but will hopefully start gaining soon. Bryce got moved to level 2 Tuesday night and we were told tonight that Addison and Collin may have a chance to move sometime tonight if the bed space is available.

My emotions are still way out of control with hormones but it is a very emotional experience going into the NICU. It is so difficult to see other babies in the NICU with such severe problems. Next to Addison and Collin in level 3 NICU there is a baby that I'm not sure if she will make it. I wanted to talk to the parents today but I was afraid I couldn't deal with what they would tell me. The little baby had doctors standing over her all day and the set up they had going on for maybe a blood transfusion or something was crazy. I cried several times thinking about that baby and how lucky we are to have such minor problems and the many things we could be going through.

I am proud of myself that I walked the halls today to the NICU. It was a lot more difficult than I thought. The PT and nurses have warned me that it would take some time after being on bedrest for so long (a little over 3 months) to get back to normal but I thought I would be fine. Well I guess I should have known they know what they are talking about. I pushed a wheelchair so I could rest if I needed to but I caught myself swerving like a drunk. I realized very quickly that I was exhausted after a short distance. I pushed myself because I know that is the only way I will get back to normal, hopefully it will not take long, I have three babies to take care of now!

Another highlight of the day was running into Jenny the little person from TLCs Little Couple. She is a doctor in TCH NICU and was apparently part of the delivery team for a baby that was delivered here at St. Luke's. I didn't speak to her but I thought she probably would know about our case if she is working on the delivery teams. They have meetings every Monday morning to update the NICU doctors and I'm surprised at how many doctors know about our case. Just a little star struck when we saw her and thought about that.

More emotions came today thinking about going home. On one hand I'm excited to go home and get back to normal life things but that also means leaving my babies and this place that has become my home for 2 months. One of the nurses came to tell me bye today because she will not be back until Monday and of course I started to cry. It has been difficult being here for so long but now its going to be hard to leave. If the doctors don't release me tomorrow then I will definitely go home Friday so be on the lookout for a crazy emotional woman headed west on 290 soon!

10 comments:

Tonya Weatherman said...

Hey girl! You are so normal!!! You feel crazy with just one, so I can only imagine with three. I'm so glad that the babies are doing so well. I'll be praying for strength for you over the next few days as you get ready to become Mommy to all three. You are a strong and amazing person and I know you'll be great at your new "job". Hang in there!!!!!
Tonya

The Haseltine's said...

It is so hard leaving your baby/ies at the hospital. However, there day will come and it will be filled with excitment!

Alicia said...

i'm so proud of you!! and you just gave birth to 3 babies...full term triplets!! amazing in my book...and you have every right to be emotional!!! i'm so happy for you both that you have these 3 little ones!! i can't wait till they get to go home with mommy and daddy!!!

mzblongoria said...

So proud of you! You are doing tremendous in my book! I STILL cry sometimes- it takes awhile for the hormones to get back to normal- I can only imagine with three. We're praying for you and the babies that they get stronger everyday. But you'll soon be amazed just how strong a woman you are- Mommy's Rock!

Anonymous said...

Hi Adrienne,

I just can't tell you enough how happy I am for you. You've done sooo good and been so strong through EVERYTHING. You are an inspiration to MANY. Now, you have new adventures and struggles that lay ahead as you'll soon learn parenting is no walk in the park! But it is by FAR the most rewarding job on the planet. I couldn't help but tear up reading your post today. Adrienne, we go way back and you will always have that special place in my heart and I am so so so thankful that God has blessed you and Steven many times over! Good luck with everything.
Love, Janna

Kari said...

Oh, Adrienne...don't feel bad for being emotional. I am every day, much less when dealing with sick babies. TCH has a Ronald McDonald house, you should check and see if you could stay there. That way you won't be far away from your angels!! Give them all a kiss from us, and take care of yourself...don't over do it!!

Kari

Jeannie said...

Congratulations on the special arrival of your babies! Our little Audra weighed 2 lbs 10 oz and was 14 in. They are amazing and tough! It is incredibly hard leaving them behind only if it is for a short time. Audra was in the NICU at Seton in Austin and I can tell you there was a many trip down 290, just the opposite direction that I cried all the way home! As you watch your babies you will see life in a whole different way and will never take the most simple things for granted. We left Austin to come home with a then 3 lb 15 oz precious miracle, and you guys will come home with your miracles too. Audra will be 5 in September and even after this much time I can remember everything like it was yesterday. It is all worth it!! Your strength will come back too; it is amazing how bedrest can take a toll on your body-I've been there. Take care and know that a lot of people are thinking and praying for all of you! Jeannie Haarmeyer Kroll

Anonymous said...

Adrienne,

I have been following your blog through Jamie's blog. I have 3 1/2 year old b/g twins that were born at 36 weeks. Your babies are just beautiful and handsome. Enjoy everyday with those babies, don't think about the day that you have to leave. No one every told me really how difficult it was going to be, and I am one who likes expectations. My babies stayed 9 & 11 days. I had to be out of my room by 11 pm and we did not leave one minute early. We tried to be there for every feeding and called at all hours of the night to check on them (put the number in speed dial). It will be the hardest day of your life and you will probably cry more than ever. Just remember, they are in the VERY best possible place in order for them to grow and get stronger to come to you. It will be here before you know it. Try to rest as much as you can when they are at the hospital. Best of luck and I will be praying for both of you the next coming days. You will survive this and it only gets better from here on out! Misty :o)

Jess and Dave said...

I can't imagine the roller coaster you guys must be on. Just know we are here if you need anything. XOXO

Anonymous said...

Congratulations to the both of you. They are so cute and handsome.  I know it is hard leaving them but remember that they are in the best possible place and you also need sometime for yourself and some much needed sleep while you can get it.  We will keep all of you in our prayers and can't ait to see those wonderful babies.  Take care..Michelle Janner