Addison, Bryce and Collin all have jaundice now and the lights on them. If this is the biggest problem they have I feel like we are extremely blessed. They are all eating well through the feeding tubes and have increased their CC's. The nurses say they like to eat! They are still losing weight but will hopefully start gaining soon. Bryce got moved to level 2 Tuesday night and we were told tonight that Addison and Collin may have a chance to move sometime tonight if the bed space is available.
My emotions are still way out of control with hormones but it is a very emotional experience going into the NICU. It is so difficult to see other babies in the NICU with such severe problems. Next to Addison and Collin in level 3 NICU there is a baby that I'm not sure if she will make it. I wanted to talk to the parents today but I was afraid I couldn't deal with what they would tell me. The little baby had doctors standing over her all day and the set up they had going on for maybe a blood transfusion or something was crazy. I cried several times thinking about that baby and how lucky we are to have such minor problems and the many things we could be going through.
I am proud of myself that I walked the halls today to the NICU. It was a lot more difficult than I thought. The PT and nurses have warned me that it would take some time after being on bedrest for so long (a little over 3 months) to get back to normal but I thought I would be fine. Well I guess I should have known they know what they are talking about. I pushed a wheelchair so I could rest if I needed to but I caught myself swerving like a drunk. I realized very quickly that I was exhausted after a short distance. I pushed myself because I know that is the only way I will get back to normal, hopefully it will not take long, I have three babies to take care of now!
Another highlight of the day was running into Jenny the little person from TLCs Little Couple. She is a doctor in TCH NICU and was apparently part of the delivery team for a baby that was delivered here at St. Luke's. I didn't speak to her but I thought she probably would know about our case if she is working on the delivery teams. They have meetings every Monday morning to update the NICU doctors and I'm surprised at how many doctors know about our case. Just a little star struck when we saw her and thought about that.
More emotions came today thinking about going home. On one hand I'm excited to go home and get back to normal life things but that also means leaving my babies and this place that has become my home for 2 months. One of the nurses came to tell me bye today because she will not be back until Monday and of course I started to cry. It has been difficult being here for so long but now its going to be hard to leave. If the doctors don't release me tomorrow then I will definitely go home Friday so be on the lookout for a crazy emotional woman headed west on 290 soon!